Oh suck

In a few minutes I have a meeting with my manager.

Work is one of those really effed up situations these days. If you can't even keep yourself or your loved ones on top of what's causing your rare illness, then you can't expect a ginormous corporation to follow the subtleties of the problem.

So usually these meetings go:

Manager: Well, HR isn't doing what they're supposed to in helping straighten this out. I expected to hear from them about your restrictions. Have you been doing any work?

Me: Well, no, I wouldn't call myself productive these days. I've been really sick, and when I come in, most of the time is spent getting reoriented.

Manager: Well, you can use the remote access resources.

Me: Well, most of the time I'm not even well enough for that.

Manager: So do they know anything?

Me: I'm going to [insert new doctor/clinic/treatment diet info here]. Maybe that will help. I'm sorry that this is happening.

Manager: I hope you get better soon.

Me: Thanks.

Except it's much more excruciating and drawn out. And I leave feeling very very stressed and wondering if I'm going to be fired despite company policy that dictates otherwise.

I've had this meeting once a month for 5 months now. I just don't see the point. I do but I don't.